Where Does Feeling Unwanted Get Me?

Unwanted. Rejected. By a parent.  A spouse.  A child.  A friend.  A stranger.  A loved one.  A coworker. Unwanted.  It means we weren't a priority, we were less valued than the conditions required to want us. We think, What's wrong with me that I wasn't enough? And that's the wrong question to ask.  In the …

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I Defied The Odds

I'm giving myself credit today. Something I don't often do.  To really take it all in.  What it means to have accomplished all that I've done.  What it really means.  It doesn't feel that way when you're in it.  When you've fought it.  And screamed it.  And it's not always easy to give credit when …

Finding the Light

I am 18.  Sitting calmly, quietly.  Looking up at the stained glass windows and the light shining through.  The particles of dust visible in the light rays, suspended, dancing.  Listening to the priest, his slurred French, running the words from a ceremony he'd likely performed hundreds of times before, I knew I wouldn't experience this …

Is Forever Enough?

The squeak of the rocking chair. Consistent. Comforting. I hold him tight. Feeling his breath.  In and out. It tickles my neck. The love. I can't begin to explain it. I really love my partner. But this is deeper. Different. He came from my body. A moment shared. A division of cells. Ketchup and spinach. …